5. Hangovers are things of the past.
WOO HOO! Gosh I don’t miss hangovers. Head pounding, dehydration setting in. I sure don’t miss that feeling. I’ve always been the one to experience a hangover after just a few drinks and there is no love lost between me and waking up in the middle of the night with a dry mouth and splitting headache. Given the fact that booze changes our levels of serotonin and other neurotransmitters in our brains, I’d often wake up the day after a long night feeling a little down and a bit anxious. The scale was always higher on Monday morning than it was on Friday. These days, anxiety is a thing of the past, and the scale is ALWAYS lower on Monday than it was on Friday. I’ll take it 😉
6. I face my feelings/fears instead of numbing them.
Being perfectly honest, going out and having drinks with friends was a way to cut loose. It was a way to forget work stress, feelings of sadness about an ex, anxiety about being single and never meeting a great guy… Looking back, I realize I was drinking away feelings I didn’t want to confront. Now, whether it’s talking to friends or family or in the comfort of my own home on a Friday night, I face those fears. I confront my feelings head on so I can understand them and move forward. Keeping a clear head has really helped me understand the beauty of turning the page – because there is much more to the book than the page I was stuck on.
7. Becoming more present in my daily life has been the biggest reward. I find myself being who I am – without apologies, without excuses. Without any masks and without covering up any of my truth. I am living the life I’m intended to live – as I truly am. Preparing for my competition has been a blessing because as each day passes, I embrace the broken pieces that have carried over from my past. I used to fear that I may never find someone to love me despite those cracks. Now, I realize that’s as nonsensical as saying sunlight is incapable of entering a broken window and illuminating a dimly lit room. Not only will I find someone who loves me just as I am, but I happen to be falling more in love with the reflection in the mirror more than ever before. I have healed myself – I’ve managed to train my mind the same way I train my body. Often times, we think we’re victims – to our past, to our current circumstances. But we’re capable of so much more! I stopped looking for love – and started simply giving it away to those who deserve it. For the first time in a long time, I am genuinely happy with my life – exactly where it is today, without wishing to change a single thing. And I happen to wholeheartedly agree with Audrey Hepburn – Happiest girls really are the prettiest.